Thursday, October 1, 2009
You ever have one of those days where you just think, man it'd be nice if something would happen. Pretty much anything... I had one of those days today. I pretty much sat around, i shoulda gone to the gym... but i didn't. I really just wasn't excited about a whole lot... cept for the fact that i made rice for the first time! :D i know that sounds ridiculous but i thought i was going to ruin it and yet it came out great... thanx again mom for the rice :D
Any who... we had a Kirk softball game tonight. For anybody that doesn't know the Kirk is my church home now. Our softball game was kinda the highlight of my day. Heidi offered to drive and we picked up Leslie and we went to the game. But something struck me today. Heidi asked me a question that i hadn't thought about until right then, and so simply we ask it and give an off the top of our head response that why even bother asking. She just asked me how my day was and i actually stopped for a min and thought about it. I usually answer this questions with OK, or pretty good, or not bad... when in all reality that doesn't usually describe my day at all. We tend to use it more as an ice breaker when we see somebody then actually caring what the answer is going to be. But this was different, whether she meant to or not it seemed like Heidi cared to know my answer. This was a nice change but i had to actually think for a second about how to describe my day. This brings me back to my topic for this blog... UNEVENTFUL.
It was! It was a total waste of a day except for the softball game. I caught up on some of my television shows that i record on DVR, which by far is the best thing that ever happened to cable television, and then just played video games and got a chance to talk to my mom today. All in all it was a pretty regular day. My first thought was... why couldn't my day have been more exciting? Why wasn't i motivated to make something happen? Why didn't i DO anything? Laziness is the obvious answer but in retrospect there are a lot of days we are DOING DOING DOING and would like our days to be a little more laid back. I think back now and say wow... i got a day, which being currently unemployed seems to happen more often then not, that i didn't have to do anything particular and could just veg out and not necessarily go go go go all the time.
In reading Marli Garcia's blog today i kinda realized something! kinda a yea... that's true moments. We GO all the time. We rarely take time in our world today to stop and "smell the roses". My house i guarantee you doesn't smell like roses but in the deep meaning of the phrase i was actually given a day where my day wasn't booked solid and i didn't HAVE to do anything.
On the other hand, i feel like i wasted today doing nothing. :(
This seems to create an elaborate paradox that just seems to prove the fact that I in particular, but most likely all human beings, just don't tend to be content.
When I'm going all the time... i wish i wasn't! When i take a day to just do nothing... i wish i was doing something! How does that work... i get what i want when i don't want it and then feel disappointed. Oh well.. deep thinking at it's finest. A human flaw only explained by the fall of man in which nothing is perfect and we are not made content because of the epic eating of the fruit. I'm with Craig, I think I'm going to hit Adam when i get to heaven...lol
Something new to think about.... a lot of the ladies on the softball team tend to read this craziness that seems to come out of my head late at night... yes you Lynn. :D
If you gals ever have a weird/deep/thought provoking question for me to ponder through and want to challenge my thoughts and blog about it... just comment on one and I'll see what i can do. kinda a challenge for me in a way. If not... I'll just keep posting what's on my mind... see if it empties out sooner or later ;)
POST IVE THINGS TO NOTE:
- Thankfulness for the church family i have and the wonderful blessing the past year has been with them.
- Thank you for blood family and though being three hours away still being able to keep in touch and have those I'm your mom so i get to tell you these things talks... Love you MOO!
*****HOLD ON TO YOUR SEATS BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING MOST AREN'T EXPECTING I'M SURE*****
Josh Turner - Everything is Fine